Lukas, Sometimes: A Billionaire Romance (Art of Sinners) by Tempest Phan

Author:Tempest Phan [Phan, Tempest]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Tempest Phan
Published: 2022-09-28T16:00:00+00:00

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Lily

I hadn’t gone to the beach today, nor any day in the week that had elapsed since I’d run out of Lukas’s house.

Excuse me. His bungalow.

I couldn’t because I was a coward. I didn’t want to see him and face the reality of that night again. The night that had been both so incredibly delicious and devastating. The night I’d slept with a man, a perfect, perfect man, who’d wished I was someone else.

My stomach turned at the thought.

Life had gone on, though. An endless loop of days that ran into the other, each exactly the same as the one before. Awaking to go to work, only to return home and collapsing into my bed, doing my best to forget the sadness and emptiness. Stretches of time where all I did was survive, sometimes interrupted by the company of Saint and Lexie when I tried to pretend to be ok, just like they were pretending too, when inside, we were all just really, really struggling.

But I was still trying.

This morning, I’d come to a realization, my heart aching: with my days no longer spent by my father’s side at the hospital, I’d suddenly been granted the gift of time. Time my father—and others in my family—hadn’t had and that I shouldn’t waste.

I’d put some of those precious grains of sand towards finding an escape from my current situation at Lou’s. I’d jotted down all the studios in the area that were looking for dance instructors. Maybe there would be a way out for me, after all.

I’d rewrite my story, somehow.

I wouldn’t waste it on feelings that couldn’t be real, and fairy tales where I would never end up being the princess anyways.

I had the wrong name.

He hadn’t tried to reach out either.

For a heart-splitting second, I thought I’d seen him during my performance. I allowed myself the evanescent joy of imagining that the tall, blond man in an austere suit watching me from the dark corners of the club had been him.

That he’d come back for me.

Not for a girl with a fairy-tale name.

It hadn’t, of course.

He hadn’t, of course.

What did I expect? He’d gotten me in his bed. There was no longer any need for him to try and contact me.

Wasn’t that how these things worked?

Even as I thought that, however, I knew how unfair I was being to him. Lukas had struck me as a pretty decent guy, aside from the whole forgetting-my-name thing.

Not just decent.

A thoughtful, generous man inside an armor of charm and steel.

I just really enjoyed his company.

Without him nearby to make me laugh over his absurdities, I was more lost than ever in my own head. There was no handsome, witty Brit to make me forget that I had just lost the most important person in my life.

The pain of losing my ba hit me with full force, and with it, the unbearable guilt that I’d actually allowed myself to forget about the pain in the first place. I wasn’t supposed to feel so alive, so soon.

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